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Mostly for cyanosisx because she asked. Shiney corset!

 

To start with. Worked night shifts Mon-Thurs this week at Plumpton. I can feel my skin becoming even more pale as I type :P Have more shifts coming up in the next three weeks, but they're not every night, so I'm not sure if that's a blessing, or a curse, because my 'body clock' is going to be STUFFED!

Phew. What a big weekend though! After working all night, taking a trip into Newtown, and only getting 3 1/2 hours sleep, I went to Blink on Friday with Natasha, Luka and Leah, and Natasha's awesome work friends, and Luka's lovely friends, and met up with Kat and her friends which was great. You rock Kat Kat! Tom and Jeff also put in a guest appearance too which was cool, and even Ash turned up (!) even though he had a Magic tournament the next day. Wore my new underbust corset, (a Waspie from Gallery Serpentine) and my pretty black fishtail skirt, and I never want to stop wearing it! So yeah, danced a bit, sat even more and watched. Not as crazy as I thought it would be for Halloween, but two fights broke out towards the end of the night so that was mildly amusing. I've never actually seen the bouncers get aggresive before.

Sadly the girls left early which was a bit sad. But I spent the rest of the night talking about music (especially Tool - must buy Lateralus) and wishing I spent more money on CDs, so that made up for it :) I think I would like to go again soon, but I'm getting so tired off the same old music. Will have to not be lazy soon and go again. It's so fun once I get there. Just gotta remember that when I'm travelling so far. :P

So that was Friday... Saturday I went to Wake the Dead. Haven't been before so I didn't know what to expect. And I was already exhausted so I was worried about staying out all night again. BUT... It was really good. Spent most of the night chatting to new and old friends which was really nice. Danced a little. :) I love my new corset, so tiny-waist making making.

So that sums up my weekend. I forgot how much fun it was to just go out all the time. Wouldn't want to do it every weekend though... *yawn*. Keeps me not feeling so lonely. Which I've really realised since doing 4 nights of night shift. I think that's part of the reason why I didn't think I was coping with anything. Nothing like a weekend of goth clubs to change your perspective!

It's the girl's art exhibition at TAFE on Wednesday. I can't wait to see Andy again! I haven't seen her since her brithday, and I'm dying to hear all the inside facts about the Arias!

Alyse xxx

The thing that sucks about working is the overwhelming sense of feeling left behind. Beginning to wonder if I should have stayed and hated TAFE. Sigh.

Only time will tell I guess.

Well. I basically quit my job. And for those of you that don't already know, I quit TAFE. Shocked? Yes you should be (though not about work, we all knew that was coming). Why you ask? Because I hated it. I realised that when it comes down to it, I've been studying art ever since I left school, so I've never had a break from study. The desire to do Advanced Diploma was greatly reduced when I found out that it counted very little to any advanced standing at uni too. So I decided that it was better for me to leave now before I hate art permanently, get a job, and take up uni when I have some money behind me. So I might work for a year then take up my deferment... I'm not sure.

Ok. So this decision came two Thursdays ago. Meaning, I left TAFE two Thursdays ago. I then sent a message to many people asking them if they knew of any jobs going, including tall man Simon. Him being the only one that replied to me, he told me of shopfitting work available with him. A whole weeks worth. And I'd make a fortune in comparison to  my previous job. So naturally I jumped on it!

So! Now that I've had a whole week of shopfitting BPs, and I didn't make any major and only one minor mistake, I basically have a job! It's contract work so I'm not guaranteed work every week. But I HAVE A JOB! Woot! I'm working next week so I'll have some money saved which is excellent.

I know it's not the most glamorous job, but I actually enjoy it. It's given me time to sit and think and put the 'major' issues of my life into perspective. I haven't picked a fight all week! I'm so proud. Hehe. And it's good working with friends because I instantly had people to ask millions of questions... Sorry about that Simon! Is it sad that I'm actually looking forward to next week?

I'm having a quiet weekend because I have 4am starts next week. Not necessarily a bad thing. I need some downtime before Blue Moon next weekend! Shiney corset ready for me to pick up! Things are finally going alright! Lysey's happy... But I'm being realistic and knowing that this could well be the calm before the storm, but I really think I can deal with it. It's amazing what the lack of assessments does for the brain! I revel in that thought. That I don't have stupid assessments taking up all my spare time!

Oh, on another note, I'm keeping the Lazerzone job for now... Just one day a week, two if I really have to. Just to give me spending money so I can save every cent that I make with Simon. I'm hoping that it will be flexible enough that I can get weekends off though. I don't remember what it's like to have weekends off. It's like a distant dream... So yeah. For all the proclamations I've made about leaving this place of evil. I'll probably be here for the next few months. At least until I get another weekend job. I can't work nights now because I don't get home from work until late.

I think I might go home and draw. I miss drawing. I bought expensive pastels the other week to entice me to draw... and it's definitely working...

At work now. Matt has just started working here so he'll be working with me today which should be cool. I'll see you all later.

Alyse xxx

I've quit TAFE.

I've quit my job.

I think it's time to start again.

I love this album. After not hearing it for nearly two years, I finally stole it off Tain (you rock Tain!). And I forgot how much I truly loved it. You know when you hear a song and you can vividly picture exactly where you were when you heard it? Not necessarily the first time you heard it, but the first time you really connected with it. The whole album is that for me. It scares me how much I remember when I listen. Then again, I look through my CD collection and there are a tonne of songs like that. I'm realising how much music is a part of my life. I really need to take up guitar again. Or bass, I'd love to learn bass. Anyway, my memories make 'Thirteenth Step' so much more awesome to me, and so much more personal. I don't know why I thought anyone would be particularly interested by that, but if you agree drop us a line! I'd love to know if there are CDs or even single songs that people have.

Until next time...

Alyse xxx  

Taken with camera phone, so excuse the poor quality... the original picture was of a Chanel model... i changed the hair, added the flower... It doesn't really look like her any more. But I think that's for the best.

Any comments will be appreciated. Assessment is tomorrow *sigh* A part of me cares and the rest doesnt give a crap.

We had to have one of our dogs put down yesterday...

If you comment in this thread...

1. I shall respond with something random I like about you.
2. I shall tell you what song, movie or book reminds me of you.
3. I shall name something we should do together.
4. I shall say something that only makes sense to you and me (or at least me).
5. I shall tell you my first or clearest memory of you.
6. I shall leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I shall ask you something that I have always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must in turn post this on your journal so you can do the same for others. Though you could just be selfish and not do so.

YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD. NO EXPLANATIONS.

1. Yourself: Alyse
2. Your Lover: Heartache
3. Your Hair: Black
4. Your Mother: Awesome
5. Your Father: Stressed
6. Your Favorite Item: Kitties
7. Your Dream Last Night: None
8. Your Favorite Drink: Cocktails
9. Your Dream Home: Shabby-Chic
10. The Room You Are In: Sewing
11. Your Pet: Tina
12. Who You Are Now: Stronger
13. Who You Want to be in Ten years: Me
15. What You Don't Wanna Be: Depressive
16. Your Best Friend: Lots
17. One of Your Wish list Items: Love
18. Your Gender: Female
19. The Last Thing You Did: Email
20. What You Are Wearing: Pyjamas
21. Your Favorite Weather: Rain
22. Your Favorite Book: Memoirs of a Geisha
23. The Last Thing You Ate: Toast
24. Your Life: Complicated
25. Your Mood: Confused
26. Your favorite store: Lots
27. Your favorite sport: Basketball
28. Favorite memory: Lithgow
29. Who do you miss right now: Obvious
30: Who did you get this survey from: leigh_of_kent

Well after reading everyone's comments on my previous post I've realised that he doesn't care about me at all, and he's only doing this to get what he wants.

*sobs*

Oh well.

He's been leaving cookies in my letterbox again. I only found out today cos my mum told me. Apparently this is the second time. My dad's been throwing them out.

F dot dot K.

I won't message him. But I'm not happy about it.

This one's for Linda... thought of you after our conversation last night... :P

What Your Underwear Says About You

When you're bad, you're very bad. And when you're good, you're still trouble! You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance. At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower. And at other times, you are wise like an iris. And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

Mel is sick... :(   get better soon. So I'm covering her shift. Which sucks, but moneys equals a happy Alyse :)

Well... Last week I went to Victoria to see the family. It was a good time away. Much better than I expected. I thought that I was going to be bored and miserable and lonely, but I really enjoyed catching up with everyone. I think it's because I'm older and can actually have meaningful conversations with my family members that made it that much better. A part of me would like to move there one day, because the pace of that area is so much better suited to me I think. Although I do love the city. So I'm torn between the two. I won't be moving any time soon though. I think it would kill me to lose all my awesome friends :) I love you all. 

So yeah, I went and saw my cousin who has a GORGEOUS baby boy (by baby I mean he's 14 months old now) who has the most blue eyes I've ever seen. I hadn't seen him before because I missed out on going down last time so it was good to see them again and to meet this cute new thing. And I got to see my awesome cousin Hayley who has a very nice boyfriend :) You've done well my girl. I freaked out my family in my black on black on black with my black and red streaked hair... but once they got talking to me they saw I was the same old Alyse and they were happy.

Brought up some sad memories being back. But that was to be expected I guess. I didn't cave and send a message so I'm proud of myself for that. It'll be a month on Wednesday. The first step to getting on with it. Still hurts, but in a different way now. Feels more like resolve now.

Went shopping with Tash yesterday. I missed her so much being away. I missed all my friends so much. A few of them got random messages from me just to keep me sane. And I bought 3kg of pears for obstacle12 because he said he liked them. :) I've gotta find a way of getting it to you! Anyway. I went shopping. It was great. I bought a new sweater for $20! And it has long sleeves just like I like! And I bought a tie cos I wanted one, and short shorts. Yes, I bought short shorts. I don't know what I was thinking. But Tash reckons they look nice lol. They're not too short. You can't see my butt so that's good lol. And I found awesome shoes... I shall have to go and see about them. I might go on a break when Paul gets here. That would be good. Shoes are good. After shopping we met up with lythandae and had dinner. Mine was nice. Linda liked hers but Natasha's was awful lol. And then we watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Man I love Johnny Depp. And Tim Burton. *dances*

Everyone seems busy lately. Must be that time of the year...

Alyse xxx

Thanks for everyone's help with the makeup... I found the stuff I needed, so thanks once again.

Another question to put out there. Does anyone know of a place where I can purchase some large feathers in various colours? Preferably somewhere easy enough to get to by train or bus, but I'm willing to do a bit of legwork if necessary.

Well I went corset shopping yesterday with Tain. Well... not quite. We went City crawling and ended up in Newtown. Which is where my shiney corset is...

http://www.galleryserpentine.com.au/ProductDetails.aspx?productID=222

This is the one I tried... (of course the picture above is not me but you get the point). The one I tried was black and BEAUTIFUL!

So... I'm going to save up and buy it. 

And a grand total score of 14! Woot! I got this from good ol' Susan and Andrew.